What Have I Been Doing

June 1, 2013

"What have I been doing?" Seemingly it is the ultimate question,really with emphasis "WHAT?" What have I been doing?. 
 Now that I am older it has taken so long to realize what I have known long before when my parents tried to instilled in my life the importance if drawing close to God.  My parents were very involved in church when I was little they did alot.  As usual they were distacted draw away from God. Yet my parents were persistant and felt as children we need structure and direction.  We were very involved growing up in church.  I couldn't wait until I was old enough to get away from attending church.

Proverbs 22:6Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.

My parents were right sending us to church.  As I got older I was so distracted the world look good and as I thought satisfying.   I had made so many mistake and my children were caught in the crossfire.  My children surferred through the tragic confusion, I later filed for irrecconcilable differences I made many mistakes that had stolen the Joy from my children, and had taken its toll on their lives due to selfishness  I am thankful because I slowly learned that God has been in control of my life.  I made the wrong decision, and taken the wrong direction in my life and my children suffered because of those decision, and God still was there for them.  They may not realized and had done the same as me not realzing that God is in control even when we make wrong choices.

James 1:2-4

2 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;

3 Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.

4 But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

 

God already knew thing we would do. Sometimes it takes some of us a longer time to learn and to really get to understand Gods' direction for us.  What saddens me the most is that it took me a long times to understand. The only I can pray is that God will help those that I have hurt to forgive me.

Also that my children to follow and make the same mistakes.

 

I am now learning what I should have learned long before, praying and hoping that God watch over my children and grandchildren.